Mine

 

I keep going - with or without

My heart felt warm and safe

In her motherly embrace.

Memories filled my brain

Her love filled my eyes...

And did not stop there...

I wish you always stay !

It is heart breaking to imagine losing a loved one. 

I know this bitter truth now

Time doesn't heal.

We just grow old....and learn to live with or without our loss.

Elders say -

"Being born in a specific family

In a specific environment,

Is all Gods plan! 

He wants us to learn what we couldnt in our last life" and when a sould leaves, their purpose is fulfilled.

Isnt this carrying the past?

And then we talk about forgetting forgiving people in this life!

Can we not just live without burdening self 

With man made theories!

Theories like the definition of being a good human being!

How to behave....when to do what....

Why not to live for self !

Why not to argue....fight....speak your heart....hurt people when it is needed!

Even though it doesnt really make sense.

And I talk about myself here...

I think 

It wouldnt matter to me if I lose or win an argument,

I think the way I fight....or my reasons ending in a fight will make me sad even before the result.

The harsh things we speak.....the hurtful emotions that grow....can not be reversed!

It is like we cannot undo the consequences of a war.

Just like when Losing someone 

I cannot regret that I would have spent more time....had been more nice.....or this or that....

I can just be there for them TODAY.

Make memories for tomorrow

Fill my heart with the love I share

Let it stay....let it be remembered 

******

Dear Hope, stay close

Some days when hope tells me

I am hopeless

I still hold it tight.

Like today when I couldnt fight

When I couldnt breadth 

I felt the pain will not let me survive...

I still did. 

Isnt that the biggest hope....that I am alive!

With or without heart

Inside or outside my head..

Before....and after....and years later....I am still living! 

I hide...me

 In a world full of lives

In a home full of love

I seek myself.

Even though I am a mother...

I still keep safe the little girl I once was.

I love her imagination.....her creativity

I adore how easily she cherishes goodness in people

I am grateful to her for being so positive

She helps me find joy in the dark hours..

She overlooks when my plans fail,

I looked for friends outside...only to find her...holding on to me..each and every time.

I always say my family....my siblings....my parents are my greatest gifts....

But I think my character that I am building.....the life lessons I am trying to practise...are my assets. They help me clear the unwanted stressful thoughts....and be a kind...and a giving person that I always aimed to be..... with a heart filled with gratitude.

Thankful for having a healthy body....

Thankful to get up each morning and be able to work

Thankful that the world is full of people with good intentions

Thankful because each night...like today....I can pray and sleep with hope.

Thankyou God

Sailing

Just like when I was 18, 

I still have boundaries.

I do not think beyond..

But today I was Honest 

not blunt nor modest.

I admitted - I have found a happy place

Without a second thought, I said I do! 

This place is warm and welcoming,

Nor young nor old...perfect to stay...!

There are real walls yet there is freedom to dream,

There are rooms for all my moods,

Perfect backdrops.....balloons.....flowers

smiles and togetherness that fills the space!

There are discussions....debates....

Not always do we agree or smile....

Yet we share, we care.....

Hear and see but never judge or decide!

This place is another home, far from mine

A place I always look up to for wisdom, day and night.

It nutures memories, reflects pure joy

Makes me believe in me.....white is white and it cannot shouldnt be denied.

I never expect....

Yet I expect this place stay the way it is.....

Beautiful inside out..surprisingly simple 

And easy to be found.

~~~~~~~~~

You are My Light in Day. You are My Moon in Night. 

You Knit Blue Clouds with a Heart Alright.

With a Halo of Hope, Compassion Drips

You talk like Bonfire with a Mole Under Your Lips

Big Eyes like the Queen, the Kind that Knows

On a Tail of the Comet When Your Face Glows

Something About her, I Heard Her Say

Even the Gods can’t take her Thunder Away

May You never Stand Alone Between Hot and Cold

Between Love & Desire, The Roots You Hold

You are a Home Within Home, Hearth you Tend

Your Poems, Your Musings, Your Stories Never End

Somedays You Learn from Me and Somedays You Teach

Someday I Wish, I will See Violet Sunsets with you on a Beach

And of all the known Colours, you are my Blue.

And of all the Lives I will I have, I will Always Choose You.