We never lose.....anything !

 I have been searching it for two days....

Didnt find it in love.....or friends....or family.
I found it in a moment I call my own.

I just found the feeling that was lost....
A feeling that could help me overcome disasters
A feeling that can help me sail through
A feeling that helps me to keep going....forward....
To keep putting efforts...
To not look at the returns....
To just live.....exactly as I want to:)
Happiness...they say is a choice...
I believe it is the positive side....of every situation .....every person .....every game.
Does it really matters....the winning or losing!
I suppose what will matter is how much I put in! How tough.....I became! And how boldly I made myself face the fight.......

I don't know How someone who made life judges our purpose here....and calls us back....
How every human learns ....being so different......so unique....
Some just keep blooming.....some who keep hating.....some who just dont have the time to live....they keep busy. Looks like I am too idle....to notice them all.
Or may be because I was on the lookout for my precious feeling that I lost....that I tried to find in each of them.....
Yet
Found it in me. 

My heart grew bigger !

 You think I healed?

Good. If you believed!

I had a storm inside....that took alot of time...

The dreamer in me went missing since then...

It never settled...or was it waiting.......

For the thunder..or the rain.

I felt awkward....not in line...

When ever I took a step forward....

I was thrown back twice.

It wasn't working....

Untill the day.....rain took everything away!

What was hidden deep inside...

I witnessed it being washed away.

I cried like I lost myself....

For something that never meant.

Something precious that only I dreamt.....was broken.

And not every broken thing, can be repaired....I found.

That's when I realised

I could hear emptiness...speak...

Of how foolish I was!

To water a weed! 

You know how I felt then?

Instead of being in that state of sad....

I felt happy from inside!

Because I had done what I did!

And I had done everything right!

Not for once was I pretentious 

Or tried to hide.

Nor was I tired of trying!

Thats what helped me look through...

I realised I can never be healed...

Through the pain....or the loss...

I realised I can never escape some things...

there is no need to show a bold face!

I was waiting outside a closed door afterall

"Not Welcome" was the only sign it bore...

So I gathered all the courage,

To leave ...and never return...

And that was the time...when I realised...

Just like the brain grows with practice...

So does the heart after loss and gains!

My heart grew bigger! 

It learnt to let go...to give up....

It learnt to live with pain, suffer and 

It learnt to .....re start ! Reset ! Relive!