Flowering

Whether I walk ahead and pretend I forget and forgive...I still have an empty spot - the past.

I try to be modest...humble and nice

But I still want to question people, fight and even play the blame game.

The younger me was ignorant.

Things...people....situations made me or broke me

Time did teach....time did heal....

Yet on days when I peep inside

I not just see the past...I empathise

I re-live it!

I think of the better outcomes,

Those situations, people and things

Had a role to play in my becoming !

But I dont thank them.

It was me who cured and cared for me!

I have lived!

I have grown!

I owe the younger me!

I love her for everything she was !

You are yours :)

 I put on a nice dress

And they like me more!

Can they not like me for who I am!

Or should I look in the mirror first?

And see clearly.....whether I like them for who they are!

Yesterday I said "nothing is fair"

Today, I peep inside to change the outer world.

I will not judge 

I will not react

I will absorb

And come back to the bay

When the waters will settle 

I will sail through!

May be I will discover ME

In the vast sea.....

Or an unknown land

That was waiting for me!

Then......

Will I still worry,

"If they like me more?"

Or will I like me more :) ??

Living

 I dont know what I was in my past life

It doesnt even matter what I was a day before

Today I gave my one hundred percent!

Today life was worth living!

I never calculate the riches or desire material wealth 

I dream to LIVE day by day

It doesnt matter how the future unfolds

Today I was honest!

Today I ate well :)

Someone once said "I talk like I just read some books" 

I took it as a compliment! 

May I trust and love without reasons

It doesnt matter if there are no returns, no rewards

Today I have a family ❤️

Today I have friends who care!

*****

Thankyou God 

I never thought I was fit for somethings...

But here I am

Your plans are the best!

The genuine parents my foundation.....siblings that laugh and cry together.....the outstanding man who loves me everyday....!

I cannot thank you enough God. 

Over and above these I became a mother that I never ever imagined. It still feels like an unknown dream....I still am doubtful everyday but then I trust you....like they trust me.