Minds game...welcome 21

last few days seemed full of love i wished this new beginning was the same but life just turned up reality on my face i found myself surrounded by things i dont like! things like....the.... stuff i dont talk noises i dont hear negativity i dont see and silence that scares me! may be i forgot what i was where i belong how could i wish why did i believe and most of all no change is welcome here. now the mind seems so empty so does the heart theres nothing to fill in though but thats is how it is expected to be. .