Poured

 I realise...

I never liked the calm,

I always liked the chaos.

I wanted to swim in the waves...

May be to test....Can I!

I always talked to troubles..

May be to convince......I really can!

Does this make me look...trying to look strong..?

....fragile....delicate....even vulnerable!

Just because......

I gave up....willingly....

And now I try to fight!

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I choose to fight with self...

 not to fight....with others...or for them

Want to know why...

Because I had let people decide how to treat me...and I realised my life....

My life....isn't just to please one....someone...or anyone!

They were not selfish .....I might call them self centered though...

But they had their plan...

And I was not a part of it you see.

So.....I learnt my lesson..

Did not become too practical...

I can chase even when hurt.....with all might....

But I never fool myself.....or my gut feeling

...if my little fist sized heart says....do not...

I JUST DON'T !

then may I suffer a loss.....

May I lose wealth......May people leave me....May the world tells me I am wrong...

I turn insensitive.....deaf and blind too

Does this make me look strong ?? ;)

I dont know...yet....

All I know is...I keep going....

I keep walking....

I reach destinations...and make new plans.

I never stop....or wait ....or turn back...

All I want is to survive storms...

Untangle life ....face my fears...

And....

Live with no regrets !