What is meant to be

 A new version of me is yet to be.

I tried to resist

I tried to hide

But love found me 

And made me smile :)

I made mistakes...

Which changed my way

Yet peace came to me

As I forgive myself :)

I like this change

Take steps to be better

Charge myself each day

To not regreat anything later.

I am AS I was

 Remember me?

Yes remember you!

***

Travelled so far

With memories of you..

You will feel a new me...

But with memories of you!

....

I cherish the younger self,

Love that carefree girl I once was...

Seems part of her still lives in me...

Looks like I have watered that seed Everyday!

...

I ain't different 

I ain't new.....

You bloom....they said...

So ......I simply grew......!

****

Neev

Jab chhote the to,

Bade bade sapne dekha karte the....

Aaj bade hue to chote chote 

Pal jeete hai :)

Papa ko dekhke lagta tha.....why does he live so simple!

But ab jaise I have understood my basics too....

Finally I work on beautifying my journey....

Not my body......or clothes......or my home

I have had friends telling me things

Colleagues commenting

Or even people who don't matter ....passing remarks....

But today it's just ME

And

I am sure my papa is very proud of me :) for who I have become......and will ever be!

Now I saw

 Everyday there's something new.....in you!

You have such a beautiful way of seeing situations....why don't you step out of your shoes for once

You have a very unique way of giving.......that none can match....but you surprise me when you treat strangers as strange!

You care unconditionally......but why just for me....!

****

I saw you 

From my eyes.....you see

So I never saw......what you had always been!

****

I see you now....As someone I always will wish you to be!

We are here to learn

 Trying hard....

Trying everyday

Yet I am still the same

And so are my days......

I wish I could learn to learn the ways

That don't bother me anymore

And forget what this life brings 

Yet I stay in this role

And forget the purpose of my soul!

I want to overcome the ME

To give up the feeling of belongingness

To not bother....rejections or acceptance

To live with my heart and mind full of 

PEACE.

I wish to live it all today

May there be no tomorrow 

Because that makes me plan and dream

And I feel the shoes I am in

I start to bother....

I put efforts....

To make things right and pleasing

Knowing it is not meant to stay after this life.

My day

Not  Today

Nor  Tomorrow 

But some day later

There will be a day

When I'll be a narrator

And tell my fairy tale :)

~~

Raaste Alag hai

Manzilen bhi.

duniya chhoti hai,

Humari doori nahi!

I look for you

There you are

Still in my thoughts

Awake in my eyes.....

Silent in my words....

I wish you were here in person too

Just here....with me today!

New year....new day

 Today was beautiful!

Not wholesome though....

For that perfect day 

I have stopped longing for...

Have not settled for less 

Besides I have started living more!

Living my ways.....

My journey

My race....

Where I am not tired!

I don't give up!

I don't expect!

And where life treats me really fair!

.

Let me say my prayers

And thank all that I had.....

For because of you

I am who I am !

Unfit for today

 You may not be the one....

you once wished to be.

but you still are the one...

someone wants to be.

***

theres this friend earning better than you...

the other one working smarter than you...

that one settled in abroad...

this one has a government job!

what about you ?

bought a house? a car? 

your spouse must be working for sure!

No ?

and you say you have kids too !

looks like the world is exploding...

every minute....every day...

what will you do..

because you are declared unfit to stay !

Absorbed

 In a different world

where you will never be...

wish I could run into space...

bacause...on Earth...somewhere you will be

so until we meet next...

lets wish you and me...

you be the best version of you,

and so will I be.

Today ends tonight;)

 With tired eyes,

I try to sleep

I think the good....

I say my prayers...

I assess my day..yet nothing works.

so I close my eyes

switch sides...

when I notice your hand

was just beside :)

to comfort 

to remind

good day bad day

today ends tonight!

To the man in YOU

 You talk your self out...

You were not very nice....

And then you say.....you were so occupied!

Let me be you someday....

Let me be honestly blunt !

I am a Woman April1,2021

something I have started writing under the theme.... 

What does it really take to be a WOMAN !!! it takes a lifetime.... 

 April 1, 2021

 I am a WOMAN.....for good you see!

 honestly....as seen from my eyes... 

in the house or outside.... 

a women is the face of any family ,

at least when people judge! 

other days it is the man who reaps... 

for the good....the woman sows.

And ! She smiles.....from behind some door...ofcourse for good ......! 

when she is so loved as a daughter, 

why does she look different when she steps outside! 

where she is expected to have some super power, 

yet made to believe -thats human!

 ...ofcourse for good...you see....! 

 it is not one who suffered... 

or a ME who felt bad.. 

it is not about you or many... 

but about the WOMAN in us!

A day without you

my smile my happiness my hope my love.... he is everything I have today! a day without him is like a day wasted *** you are not a piece of my heart....but my reality you are the morning sun.... the night star that twinkles me goodnight... as I think of going to bed...without you in my arms.... is like emptiness....its like nothing. I am so used to you my Baby you are someone I have spent the least time in my like....but you are the most important part of me and will always be! mumma loves you for being hers :)

Minds game...welcome 21

last few days seemed full of love i wished this new beginning was the same but life just turned up reality on my face i found myself surrounded by things i dont like! things like....the.... stuff i dont talk noises i dont hear negativity i dont see and silence that scares me! may be i forgot what i was where i belong how could i wish why did i believe and most of all no change is welcome here. now the mind seems so empty so does the heart theres nothing to fill in though but thats is how it is expected to be. .

My Day

I will have my peace they say, he says, she says, let them say...... I just smile at the mirror, I really dont have ears to lend eyes to see or a mouth to participate... I just have me...with all my peace! . . I hold nothing, I pass on nothing, my aura is positivity and hope, I sing when ever I can, prayer is part of my play too, I live only today, because tomorrow I can not see. .... like this moment I have time, I have space I have peace and words to share :)

Your time isnt mine

Sometimes all I need is a good talk and yet I keep busy I run from creating a social self I talk to me, I give myself all the time to understand, my problems are mine, and so can be the solutions! I aint egoist to not take help but I cant handle the wait, that state, I am the kinds to talk more and more but when it is just listening ears, I am expected to have I step back to being my own self.

Thought

Some things never end....like love
Some things never reach their end....like love

I feel like 20

 Looks like yesterday when I graduated

That teenAGE, energy and attitude!

Its been ten years ......BUT

I feel like I am no more than 20;)

I still have things to start ,

I have so much to prove....

I still have dreams that are sooooo BIG

I still fear mom and dad,

And I still like those love dates!