#3 How we met

 After February, we did meet

But I remember when we met in August.
We did not share contacts...
Sister had....and that was fine.
....
Since we belonged to the same city
Sister booked tickets with him,
And we travelled home together.

I still remember...
it rained as we boarded our train
He sat on the opposite window
And this person.........
He put his head out of the emergency window, to enjoy the rain!
Can you believe it!
even though the train was stationed...
He made me worry!
I got worried for someone new! I admit.
I felt like asking him to not peep....
Just then he turned his head in
With soaked up hair and face all wet
He smiled
Did he know I was concerned?
How could he!
Why was I thinking so much!

Before retiring to bed,
I went to charge my cell phone.
The socket was near the washrooms.
As I inserted the plug and turned...
There he was...
To accompany me.
We didn't talk much
Was it the time to get familiar and be friends?

Back to our berths
we played word games,
Got to know our hobbies,
Talked about work....home...
And exchanged numbers too

#2 How we met

 What I remember back then

The ancient artifacts....colourful canvases......the pin drop silence.....

And the smell of paint....

Although painting for me is just a hobby

It is my way of rejuvenation too

Hence I felt fresh and happy here:)

.

After an afternoon well spent at the art gallery...

we three, sat on the table to eat

But he kept staring the dusky sky,

I did ignor him but then I enquired

He pointed up

Showed - the sun and the moon sharing the same sky.

I have seen such a sky before

Ofcourse I know the science behind

Yet........

this person I just met....

Seems to be different

He admired things,

the everyday stuff !

Which I once did too. 

I had always been an optimist....

I cherished music all around...

But I was indifferent now

I was overworked, avoided friends,

I kept low and had set boundaries too.

..

Here....

I got stuck in this dusky moment I felt...

Because

for the very first time....

I was all ears to someone NEW!

I wished to hear....to listen more.....

..

To justify my present nature 

I satisfied my taste buds

stuffed my mouth

headed back to my rented place

#1 How we met

I remember what I wore that day

black top,
A long skirt
mobile pouch hung around my neck
Red drop earrings...
....and my everyday black sandals.
That was not even close to beautiful!
I dressed so casual
while loose hair befriended the wind....
I wonder what caught his eyes....
Or what made him think....I was the one!
...
He says it was love at first sight
You think I should buy that?
Today after a decade, he says the same:)
I guess, he didn't really lie....

....

Flashback

I have turned so many pages....
Yet I am on the same ....for you...
I wish this was not so difficult...
Because I close my eyes to see you

Memories have survived the test of time...
And travelled with me to places...
A part of me I still miss...
That I had....shared with you:)

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Often remembering past events
Bring clarity to our present self!
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Memories can fill us with joy
& bring peace to our troubled minds..

What is meant to be

 A new version of me is yet to be.

I tried to resist

I tried to hide

But love found me 

And made me smile :)

I made mistakes...

Which changed my way

Yet peace came to me

As I forgive myself :)

I like this change

Take steps to be better

Charge myself each day

To not regreat anything later.

I am AS I was

 Remember me?

Yes remember you!

***

Travelled so far

With memories of you..

You will feel a new me...

But with memories of you!

....

I cherish the younger self,

Love that carefree girl I once was...

Seems part of her still lives in me...

Looks like I have watered that seed Everyday!

...

I ain't different 

I ain't new.....

You bloom....they said...

So ......I simply grew......!

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Neev

Jab chhote the to,

Bade bade sapne dekha karte the....

Aaj bade hue to chote chote 

Pal jeete hai :)

Papa ko dekhke lagta tha.....why does he live so simple!

But ab jaise I have understood my basics too....

Finally I work on beautifying my journey....

Not my body......or clothes......or my home

I have had friends telling me things

Colleagues commenting

Or even people who don't matter ....passing remarks....

But today it's just ME

And

I am sure my papa is very proud of me :) for who I have become......and will ever be!

Now I saw

 Everyday there's something new.....in you!

You have such a beautiful way of seeing situations....why don't you step out of your shoes for once

You have a very unique way of giving.......that none can match....but you surprise me when you treat strangers as strange!

You care unconditionally......but why just for me....!

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I saw you 

From my eyes.....you see

So I never saw......what you had always been!

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I see you now....As someone I always will wish you to be!

We are here to learn

 Trying hard....

Trying everyday

Yet I am still the same

And so are my days......

I wish I could learn to learn the ways

That don't bother me anymore

And forget what this life brings 

Yet I stay in this role

And forget the purpose of my soul!

I want to overcome the ME

To give up the feeling of belongingness

To not bother....rejections or acceptance

To live with my heart and mind full of 

PEACE.

I wish to live it all today

May there be no tomorrow 

Because that makes me plan and dream

And I feel the shoes I am in

I start to bother....

I put efforts....

To make things right and pleasing

Knowing it is not meant to stay after this life.

My day

Not  Today

Nor  Tomorrow 

But some day later

There will be a day

When I'll be a narrator

And tell my fairy tale :)

~~

Raaste Alag hai

Manzilen bhi.

duniya chhoti hai,

Humari doori nahi!

I look for you

There you are

Still in my thoughts

Awake in my eyes.....

Silent in my words....

I wish you were here in person too

Just here....with me today!

New year....new day

 Today was beautiful!

Not wholesome though....

For that perfect day 

I have stopped longing for...

Have not settled for less 

Besides I have started living more!

Living my ways.....

My journey

My race....

Where I am not tired!

I don't give up!

I don't expect!

And where life treats me really fair!

.

Let me say my prayers

And thank all that I had.....

For because of you

I am who I am !

Unfit for today

 You may not be the one....

you once wished to be.

but you still are the one...

someone wants to be.

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theres this friend earning better than you...

the other one working smarter than you...

that one settled in abroad...

this one has a government job!

what about you ?

bought a house? a car? 

your spouse must be working for sure!

No ?

and you say you have kids too !

looks like the world is exploding...

every minute....every day...

what will you do..

because you are declared unfit to stay !

Absorbed

 In a different world

where you will never be...

wish I could run into space...

bacause...on Earth...somewhere you will be

so until we meet next...

lets wish you and me...

you be the best version of you,

and so will I be.

Today ends tonight;)

 With tired eyes,

I try to sleep

I think the good....

I say my prayers...

I assess my day..yet nothing works.

so I close my eyes

switch sides...

when I notice your hand

was just beside :)

to comfort 

to remind

good day bad day

today ends tonight!

To the man in YOU

 You talk your self out...

You were not very nice....

And then you say.....you were so occupied!

Let me be you someday....

Let me be honestly blunt !

I am a Woman April1,2021

something I have started writing under the theme.... 

What does it really take to be a WOMAN !!! it takes a lifetime.... 

 April 1, 2021

 I am a WOMAN.....for good you see!

 honestly....as seen from my eyes... 

in the house or outside.... 

a women is the face of any family ,

at least when people judge! 

other days it is the man who reaps... 

for the good....the woman sows.

And ! She smiles.....from behind some door...ofcourse for good ......! 

when she is so loved as a daughter, 

why does she look different when she steps outside! 

where she is expected to have some super power, 

yet made to believe -thats human!

 ...ofcourse for good...you see....! 

 it is not one who suffered... 

or a ME who felt bad.. 

it is not about you or many... 

but about the WOMAN in us!

A day without you

my smile my happiness my hope my love.... he is everything I have today! a day without him is like a day wasted *** you are not a piece of my heart....but my reality you are the morning sun.... the night star that twinkles me goodnight... as I think of going to bed...without you in my arms.... is like emptiness....its like nothing. I am so used to you my Baby you are someone I have spent the least time in my like....but you are the most important part of me and will always be! mumma loves you for being hers :)

Minds game...welcome 21

last few days seemed full of love i wished this new beginning was the same but life just turned up reality on my face i found myself surrounded by things i dont like! things like....the.... stuff i dont talk noises i dont hear negativity i dont see and silence that scares me! may be i forgot what i was where i belong how could i wish why did i believe and most of all no change is welcome here. now the mind seems so empty so does the heart theres nothing to fill in though but thats is how it is expected to be. .