Friday, 26 June 2020

They give me a happy feeling

I wish I knew this before
Life is not some rocket science!
What is in the heart
Should be on the face,
What is in the eyes
Should be on the lips......

I wish I don't hurt people
Specially those who simply love me
I wish I always be with them
On a call, message or in real!

Like old buddies who never turn old
They are that happy feeling,
Their presence will not change today
But a little talk can revive memories.

***
Thats the part I play in their life too,
I can be the positive little bud and bloom,
Share the rainbows, sun and wind
Laugh, sing and walk along
Thats what FRIENDS are meant to be !
:)

Wednesday, 24 June 2020

Love.....in your eyes :)

He saw me once
Then twice then thrice....
Always I was dressed up nice!

Our meetings grew
So did our love!
We ate,
we laughed,
We argued,
We fought,
We live together now!

I still think what to wear everyday,
To look nice for him, for no reason though !
He has seen ......
my messed up hair,
My mouth stuffed with a sandwich too,
Looking wierd with his tshirt on,
Posing with a broom and duster so many times....
Still I like to look nice ....to his eyes:)

You love me for who I am
You always did!
Still I wish this feeling of butterflies
Fill our hearts.....everytime our eyes meet!
Everytime we fall in love,
And
Everyday I feel special like the first day
When you watched the sun and moon together in our sky

***
This one is for you- Shreyans !


Monday, 8 June 2020

Be human!

I wish there was some true love...
A love each human could feel and see...
But some are blind ....
And deaf.....and dumb...
Simple humans they cannot be!

Saturday, 6 June 2020

When I look beautiful

It is just a little make up
And suddenly they like me more...
They -all of them I mean.
Why do I have to look good....for someone
For anyone for that matter!
Why can't I look what I have been made to look like..
***
Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder!
But my beauty lies wihin me
I have always loved the emotions
And not the outer happiness..
But still I dress up
Still I pose
To be a part of the beholders.......

Tuesday, 2 June 2020

The baby lizard


It is true! Death has a scary face.
I witnessed one today....
I never thought I could...
just stand and see ones painful face.
But I just did....and I feel weak.
I fear what growing old holds in future...
I can forget for a while...
but I can never overcome...
the loss of anyones life !

I was speechless...I was mum...
in a flash, I saw my entire world shrink into the silence....that a departing soul leaves behind.
my relationships.....my karma....MY?
there's nothing that's mine! not even this body I have.
everything I have is outside.....this mind....this soul...what do I live for...What do I need really! I just don't know if there is a need to even stop and think.

What I know is....
it is hard....very very hard to witness a death...
to try to pretend strong...
I can digest thats what is born had to die...
but how does one forget what that life leaves behind...


Monday, 11 May 2020

A Little Something

Is it monotony ?
You know! I live each day.
Then some nostalgia?
No, no, I enjoy the experienced me.
You are a new mother, it must be all the days work for sure?
Ofcourse not, It is just me!

A little something is inside,
not very simple to describe
yet a feeling that holds me back.....
from doing all that I ever did.
It is not more love that I am looking for,
Deviating from everyday won't make it better,
Shortly, everything that surrounds me has become unimportant!

I always felt - respect is the only response to those who circle us.
But I failed to remember that we are HUMAN,
with work prejudice, birth assumptions, societal barriers !
who will hurt others intentionally,
it is these notions that surpass respect and love sometimes!





Saturday, 25 April 2020

Overcoming

I know a change is for good
I want this good to last
Still I wish I was the old me,
I wish I never took some steps.
Some steps that make me happy
That make me who I am today & what I have!
It took me long to overcome my fears!!
Yet the heart wants to make me feel guilty
The brain wants to show me the road I could have been on.....
I am not convincing.....me.....
Rather I want to wash it off,
All that this brain can think,
All that this heart wants to resist
All that is not just good to give a thought too.

I love everything that surrounds me
I am true to my little soul,
I have my reasons to walk this path,
With its beautiful past roots too.

*****
Past is a place to learn from, present is a place to be! - a quote I read in my last book

Thursday, 16 April 2020

The 5 AC

This is surely my first article I am writing about something important I read in a book I recently read - 
The 5 AM club - by Robin Sharma.


It is the habit of rising early. Something that honestly I don't follow as of now!
though I have heard this since my childhood days that rising early multiplies ones energy, helps one to plan the day and most importantly it is a good habit to have a routine. It is the hour of least distraction, highest human glory and greatest peace.
I was convinced with this even as a child but somewhere I was casual with my approach or not firm on following a routine.

Personally, I found the 20/20/20 model in the book very helpful. It states that when you get up at 5:00, you plan your next one hour in three slots i.e. first 20 minutes of relentless exercise, next 20 minutes of self meditation, and last 20 minutes in self motivation via audio books/reading or should be spent in planning. When I read it I found it something very simple, but as I started working on it, it made me feel the magic of the 20/20/20 rule. We all do exercise, meditation or planning but it is not a conscious routine with which our - Mindset, Healthset, Soulset or Heartset is tuned to. These are the four areas which affect us when we plan. We basically revolve around these. It is so important to feed them everyday to make sure our motivational and satisfaction giving harmones are generated well, which inturn make us happy and keep us charged.

Robin Sharma highlighted the use of technology, rather one should say the dependence on the excessive use of gadgets, like checking the messages, updates etc. It is like keeping oneself busy with things that are not helping us improve our productivity. The geniuses spent their hours in practice! and yet one can argue that a little shopping on some application makes me happy, boosts my mood, it is NOT so. It might satisfy you by keeping you busy but it is not adding to your four core areas that are health, mind, soul and heart. Famous personalities spend their time in polishing their talents which were ofcourse not inherent or god gifted. Even if someone was, still he had to work on it to make it suitable for the environment which is so dynamic. Furthermore, the book states a time when you rise and when you sleep to be technology free to boost your Melotonin - thats the harmone triggered to tell you - You are sleepy now!

One thing that I will carry with me is the HGH - Human Growth Harmone! we must have seen - it is not the mind that ages, it is the body ! To fool the body or keep it in shape, we workout everyday! So basically when we physically push our body 25% of the HGH is produced! and the rest is produced when we sleep ! Yes ! When we sleep and our brain is filling with the ten thousand thoughts and is at rest, it releases 75% of the HGH that we really need. The book states sleeping less or more - both harm the aging harmone and we in a way invite death because of this habit of ours. To make sure we have the right hours of sleep, atleast 7 and a half hours of sleep should be given to the body, not more not less.

Last but not the least - the book states wonderful sayings of well known personalities from different fields. Their saying out of their experience that is something money can't buy.

### My purpose of writing here is I believe making notes for self more than anything else.



Wednesday, 11 December 2019

The sleep fight

Its late
Quite late
For a new mommy to be awake!
Specially if she's tired
If she has a restless day...
When her physical self has given up
But the mind looks like ....is still awake!
The heart still wants to feel more....good


***
It is so difficult to convince my mind
To make it go to sleep.......to make it believe ...today is over.....we have tomorrow to work again....
I don't belive in tomorrows now! Because they never come. What comes and stays is Today!

Saturday, 7 December 2019

A LIFE I chose TODAY !


life is still a race
like it was a decade ago!

Honestly, 
every day was not happy or great for this timid one
but I have lived each day,
with dreams
some fears
a little hope
lot of efforts!

I am BETTER
I am climbing
I am achieving
I am happy...I can say that without a second thought
.....but it is still a race
to be happier...to be better......
to be beautiful....to be richer.....

But that was never my goal
because somewhere deep inside me
I have always been satisfied
with what ever came my way !
I never longed for more than what is enough.


So now on
I will not run to be better
I will stand by and watch the race...
I will enjoy my tea and my bun,
from a distant shade :)
I chose to be carefree from today :)

***I already feel happy writing this 
sometimes we write to feel good,
and sometime writing helps us decide
what the mind is upto....!








Saturday, 1 June 2019

This Run

Lost in my small world
sinking in the house chores
with half shut eyes
I head towards the kitchen
and try to be the woman with superpowers!

Sometimes when my day ends
and I give it a thought of how days pass by...
I find myself pacing up....
not in an air conditioned office,
but yeah in the shoes I am in.

Honestly, we all are the same
you have your reasons to speed up,
and I have mine!

What satisfies me more is that
there's nothing much we can do
about all the things that we create...
about all the efforts that we took...
in a relationship
in a task, a project, a meeting
but yes they do matter for now,
they do create something better for my bodily world.




Friday, 15 February 2019

Lost love

Morning was dead silent
I managed to look above my blanket
Hoping to see you sleeping near...
When you are no more....here!
You are no where
And you will never be
We all are left behind
With memories in our hearts so clear
When you are no more here!
We love you
We miss you
We have memories.....
From the very first day when we saw u...
And you shivered even on our lap
You were incredible
I wish I could hug you and tell you
But...you are no more here

Wednesday, 12 December 2018

We complicate ourself

Nothing was complicated
Nor were the people!
It was "I" who thought so!
They always thought of love
It was "I" who thought they have a brain!

They never saw the price tags
Gifts were acts of pleasing!
But "I" had its doubts 
And always landed up in regrets...
***
Love is never right or wrong
It is the society who judges 
People around you will always have something to say
And "I" is also a part of this world!
So its human to doubt .....to fail
But "I" ....
....is still in doubt
And still have regrets
And is happy to live in such a state...



Sunday, 8 July 2018

Everythg that you see in the mirror......is everythg that you ever tried to be!!

Things change and so do people!

They forget they once were a baby
and that they've learnt this big word called universe
it was not natural....never
they even needed a hand to stand.....to hold
they were taught the language.....thats how they interact now!
thats how they show.............emotions!

what we are today is everything we ...
learnt....
practised...
felt right to do !

When I look back from where I am
I feel things were too simple to do!
may it be that first stage performance
the board exams....
that office presentation....
getting married....
becoming a mother......etc etc ...
nothing was ever so BIG as I thought it...
what made those things fearsome...difficult
.was......
that it was my first time...!

Situations change
but the change they bring in us...
is for our betterment....
What I learnt is .................
I can strive for my betterself...
I can go that extra mile.....and enjoy the view
I can just be in the moment....and be a part of it
and no one can stop me....from  being me!


Monday, 14 May 2018

Silence Speaks

Silence speaks volumes
specially when I am with me!!

silence is soothing...it gives peace :)
when we work..and .....we love
near a silent beach
and wuh the soothing breeze...wow!

 it is disturbing......
when we avoid situations....obstruct thoughts
like an argument among friends....
a heated board meeting...

silence is power !
when we face......we stand firm.
we know whats right
and yes we do fight !

it might be an emotion ,
felt deep within...
a soul departing.....leaving sorrow and grief
or a new born....sleeping quietly!

it may take alot of time,
and may result in many forms,
but I personally feel
it is the time
when you interact with self....
assess...and guide......
that small seedling thought
it is like a baby within...
give it the best.....nourish it
and share it .....
because silence can speak volumes!



Saturday, 3 March 2018

SHE - is so special to be :)

she is soft......she is kind
She is beautiful.....she has a mind
She is everything that a man needs
She can be anything a family needs!
She has dreams
She has power
She has patience
She has a heart
There's nothing that can bound her
But alot of love... she can hold!

A girl should i call her
Or a grown up woman
Dads princess i can call her
Or some kiddos super mom!
She is nothing less than anyone
Nothing more than herself.

Its a pleasant peaceful day
That i think about her
And gives me immense pleasure
To be like her!

She is in those strange smiles
That are shared when i cross the road.
She is those stories
That i watch in theatres
She is  everywhere around
Yet in a different city!
She is near......yet distant by time
She is here...with me....in me
She is everythg i am today
:)



Monday, 31 July 2017

Life... A lie

I never wished for the stars
Nor the moon or the farthest pluto
It was you who i wished for
Yesterday....today....and in the time to come. 
I do not run after things
What I have  is worth thanks giving! 
I too have responsibilities 
But I just happened to know what life is. 
Life is a journey where you explore
Who you really are! 
The day you realize 
Is your  day of salvation! 
Things wont hurt then, 
Nor people will. 
You will be so much more
So much more than you can think

Friday, 19 May 2017

Its summer!

Yes it is summer
And yes it is hot
I look at my rooms curtain
It has leaves printed on it
And the sun is still peeping through it.
It adds life to my curtain.... To my room
Even at this time
When it is about to set!
It gives me a happy feeling:)

Some everyday simple things
Give  you such a satisfying thought!
It is you who looks at the brighter side
It is you to decide whether to smile
And it is you who makes your everythg worthwhile!


Monday, 20 March 2017

I am learning

Life is never about someone
Nor, is it a story of you!

It is a walk
Where I can get tired and stop!
 I can fall and get hurt
Where I admire all that nature has
 I meet people....
Some join me... Some leave
I get stuck at some place
But the walk...  the walk doesnt end
And I continue....
To feel happier... To experience more
To live more.... To laugh more...
And finally to reach the end
Thats death...


Monday, 10 October 2016

We can bring a change

"This is nuisance on the roads!"
I shout so easily looking at the jam!
I get down and walk
I take a few steps more..
And there is litter on the turns!
"What the hell is this now!"
I shout again as if I own the roads...the streets..
As if I clean them everyday!
Its easy to.be angry...
Easy to blame
Easy to yell at someone
But it takes alot to bring a change!
To believe in the good
To trust others
Still, I think it is someone's job!
And yes it is!
It is the job of the people....!
Because we dont own the roads... they belong to us!
WE THE PEOPLE - is one of the most powerful word