My day

Not  Today

Nor  Tomorrow 

But some day later

There will be a day

When I'll be a narrator

And tell my fairy tale :)

~~

Raaste Alag hai

Manzilen bhi.

duniya chhoti hai,

Humari doori nahi!

I look for you

There you are

Still in my thoughts

Awake in my eyes.....

Silent in my words....

I wish you were here in person too

Just here....with me today!

New year....new day

 Today was beautiful!

Not wholesome though....

For that perfect day 

I have stopped longing for...

Have not settled for less 

Besides I have started living more!

Living my ways.....

My journey

My race....

Where I am not tired!

I don't give up!

I don't expect!

And where life treats me really fair!

.

Let me say my prayers

And thank all that I had.....

For because of you

I am who I am !

Unfit for today

 You may not be the one....

you once wished to be.

but you still are the one...

someone wants to be.

***

theres this friend earning better than you...

the other one working smarter than you...

that one settled in abroad...

this one has a government job!

what about you ?

bought a house? a car? 

your spouse must be working for sure!

No ?

and you say you have kids too !

looks like the world is exploding...

every minute....every day...

what will you do..

because you are declared unfit to stay !

Absorbed

 In a different world

where you will never be...

wish I could run into space...

bacause...on Earth...somewhere you will be

so until we meet next...

lets wish you and me...

you be the best version of you,

and so will I be.

Today ends tonight;)

 With tired eyes,

I try to sleep

I think the good....

I say my prayers...

I assess my day..yet nothing works.

so I close my eyes

switch sides...

when I notice your hand

was just beside :)

to comfort 

to remind

good day bad day

today ends tonight!

To the man in YOU

 You talk your self out...

You were not very nice....

And then you say.....you were so occupied!

Let me be you someday....

Let me be honestly blunt !

I am a Woman April1,2021

something I have started writing under the theme.... 

What does it really take to be a WOMAN !!! it takes a lifetime.... 

 April 1, 2021

 I am a WOMAN.....for good you see!

 honestly....as seen from my eyes... 

in the house or outside.... 

a women is the face of any family ,

at least when people judge! 

other days it is the man who reaps... 

for the good....the woman sows.

And ! She smiles.....from behind some door...ofcourse for good ......! 

when she is so loved as a daughter, 

why does she look different when she steps outside! 

where she is expected to have some super power, 

yet made to believe -thats human!

 ...ofcourse for good...you see....! 

 it is not one who suffered... 

or a ME who felt bad.. 

it is not about you or many... 

but about the WOMAN in us!

A day without you

my smile my happiness my hope my love.... he is everything I have today! a day without him is like a day wasted *** you are not a piece of my heart....but my reality you are the morning sun.... the night star that twinkles me goodnight... as I think of going to bed...without you in my arms.... is like emptiness....its like nothing. I am so used to you my Baby you are someone I have spent the least time in my like....but you are the most important part of me and will always be! mumma loves you for being hers :)

Minds game...welcome 21

last few days seemed full of love i wished this new beginning was the same but life just turned up reality on my face i found myself surrounded by things i dont like! things like....the.... stuff i dont talk noises i dont hear negativity i dont see and silence that scares me! may be i forgot what i was where i belong how could i wish why did i believe and most of all no change is welcome here. now the mind seems so empty so does the heart theres nothing to fill in though but thats is how it is expected to be. .

My Day

I will have my peace they say, he says, she says, let them say...... I just smile at the mirror, I really dont have ears to lend eyes to see or a mouth to participate... I just have me...with all my peace! . . I hold nothing, I pass on nothing, my aura is positivity and hope, I sing when ever I can, prayer is part of my play too, I live only today, because tomorrow I can not see. .... like this moment I have time, I have space I have peace and words to share :)

Your time isnt mine

Sometimes all I need is a good talk and yet I keep busy I run from creating a social self I talk to me, I give myself all the time to understand, my problems are mine, and so can be the solutions! I aint egoist to not take help but I cant handle the wait, that state, I am the kinds to talk more and more but when it is just listening ears, I am expected to have I step back to being my own self.

Thought

Some things never end....like love
Some things never reach their end....like love

I feel like 20

 Looks like yesterday when I graduated

That teenAGE, energy and attitude!

Its been ten years ......BUT

I feel like I am no more than 20;)

I still have things to start ,

I have so much to prove....

I still have dreams that are sooooo BIG

I still fear mom and dad,

And I still like those love dates!

They give me a happy feeling

I wish I knew this before
Life is not some rocket science!
What is in the heart
Should be on the face,
What is in the eyes
Should be on the lips......

I wish I don't hurt people
Specially those who simply love me
I wish I always be with them
On a call, message or in real!

Like old buddies who never turn old
They are that happy feeling,
Their presence will not change today
But a little talk can revive memories.

***
Thats the part I play in their life too,
I can be the positive little bud and bloom,
Share the rainbows, sun and wind
Laugh, sing and walk along
Thats what FRIENDS are meant to be !
:)

Love.....in your eyes :)

He saw me once
Then twice then thrice....
Always I was dressed up nice!

Our meetings grew
So did our love!
We ate,
we laughed,
We argued,
We fought,
We live together now!

I still think what to wear everyday,
To look nice for him, for no reason though !
He has seen ......
my messed up hair,
My mouth stuffed with a sandwich too,
Looking wierd with his tshirt on,
Posing with a broom and duster so many times....
Still I like to look nice ....to his eyes:)

You love me for who I am
You always did!
Still I wish this feeling of butterflies
Fill our hearts.....everytime our eyes meet!
Everytime we fall in love,
And
Everyday I feel special like the first day

When you watched the sun and moon together in our sky

***
This one is for you- Shreyans !

Be human!

I wish there was some true love...
A love each human could feel and see...
But some are blind ....
And deaf.....and dumb...
Simple humans they cannot be!

When I look beautiful

It is just a little make up
And suddenly they like me more...
They -all of them I mean.
Why do I have to look good....for someone
For anyone for that matter!
Why can't I look what I have been made to look like..
***
Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder!
But my beauty lies wihin me
I have always loved the emotions
And not the outer happiness..
But still I dress up
Still I pose
To be a part of the beholders.......

The baby lizard

It is true! Death has a scary face.
I witnessed one today....
I never thought I could...
just stand and see ones painful face.
But I just did....and I feel weak.
I fear what growing old holds in future...
I can forget for a while...
but I can never overcome...
the loss of anyones life !

I was speechless...I was mum...
in a flash, I saw my entire world shrink into the silence....that a departing soul leaves behind.
my relationships.....my karma....MY?
there's nothing that's mine! not even this body I have.
everything I have is outside.....this mind....this soul...what do I live for...What do I need really! I just don't know if there is a need to even stop and think.

What I know is....
it is hard....very very hard to witness a death...
to try to pretend strong...
I can digest thats what is born had to die...
but how does one forget what that life leaves behind...