Song time

This has been my favourite since I was little. 

 

#4 How we met!

The phone beeped 

It was his text

He wrote - " I like you"

And he added - that's all I always meant!

What should I have felt?

Happy? Excited?

I just felt numb. 

I did admit then, 

he was the perfect person

Someone with whom I was me...

He was nice...really nice 

Taking care of every single thing.

I must have been in a shell

Thus, I never thought beyond....

Maybe I gave up hope and was fine with anything that would come my way...

yet this person entered without asking!

 He was right there....coming my way

Making me afraid of coming too close !

I really felt something

Maybe...

An emotion...I didn't understand

Will it hurt? Will it make me sad? Will things turn right? I had no idea.....

I don't know what made me trust him and I wanted to take a step forward !

Without hesitation...

I called....said let's meet

And the next day...

We Met !

Live in the moment

 I chased some memories today

checked on some people from the past too
I can't really think of a good reason why I did so..
Have I become too modest!
Or it doesn't cost to be nice!

I think because even if I am very patient
I can't really wait!
Wait to rectify....wait to speak my heart
And wait to regret in the future.

About me

 I don't remember since when did I start being like this....

When tired..... bored....or dead sick....
I still behave as a fighter
I don't give up.

Even when everything around is a mess...
I turn emotionless and just start over :)
I actually do that
Somedays I really wish to be angry...and mourn and behave like a kid....but that's too tiring to even think...forget about behaving like that...


I don't remember a single thing that I gave up recently....
Yes there were things I chose to not persue....things where I made a mature choice of letting go.....or may be situations where I acted too practical unlike the younger me......!

But today if someone will ask me
Do I regret anything.....when I look back!
The answer will be NOTHING
I am thankful to the simple me
For being optimist....
And for trusting God's plans.

God story of you is surely way too beautiful than your plans.

Addons to Make everyday a different day

 I wish we all live for today

As if there won't be a tomorrow.
May be that way we will cherish,
the beauty of evrything around!

So today...
I was with self!
I .........
Cooked new dishes,
Parted my hair in a different way:)
Crocheted my own designs,
Wore new trackpants and cycled longer,
Solved the crossword which everyday I forget to sit and do.
Slept like a baby..
Sipped my tea with ease...
Bought self a packet of candies
And the most important of all these....
I didn't let anything bother me
Or hold me back.

Family makes you strong...family makes you weak

I just lost an elderly

And I realise among the things
That we cannot control....
Life....surpasses love.

Memories become most important ..
love backs up the Life lost
Remembrance now...
Is like sour tears....yet sweet
How do one overcomes
This feeling of emptiness ?
Does time really heals
Or teaches one how to get used to it!
After all Life won't sympathize
Nor will time be patient.

To my busy friend!

Yes I had been busy with my life

Family and so many things,

Yet I have you my friend...

Whom I remember and wish well.

Hope you are healthy

And making the most of every minute

I hope you are humming your songs

Cooking and enjoying your momo's....

Hope everything's fine with you!

I can just hope...........untill we talk.

Untill the day....

You tell me what went wrong!

****

Hope...we will meet soon! 

Smooth deparure

 If each day A wish could be true

Today I wish...
The elderly live smooth.
I wish they stay positive...
Laugh each day.
that  will make more memories...
To remember when they wont stay...

Life is amazing
It just cannot be controlled,
Persuaded or bluffed
But it can be lived up
With tears of joy,
Sharing warmth in our hearts.

Why do I not have clear thoughts
Feel such a confused state
departing brings emptiness for sure
I don't know what's more to it
It is so difficult to think beyond..

#3 How we met

 After February, we did meet

But I remember when we met in August.
We did not share contacts...
Sister had....and that was fine.
....
Since we belonged to the same city
Sister booked tickets with him,
And we travelled home together.

I still remember...
it rained as we boarded our train
He sat on the opposite window
And this person.........
He put his head out of the emergency window, to enjoy the rain!
Can you believe it!
even though the train was stationed...
He made me worry!
I got worried for someone new! I admit.
I felt like asking him to not peep....
Just then he turned his head in
With soaked up hair and face all wet
He smiled
Did he know I was concerned?
How could he!
Why was I thinking so much!

Before retiring to bed,
I went to charge my cell phone.
The socket was near the washrooms.
As I inserted the plug and turned...
There he was...
To accompany me.
We didn't talk much
Was it the time to get familiar and be friends?

Back to our berths
we played word games,
Got to know our hobbies,
Talked about work....home...
And exchanged numbers too

#2 How we met

 What I remember back then

The ancient artifacts....colourful canvases......the pin drop silence.....

And the smell of paint....

Although painting for me is just a hobby

It is my way of rejuvenation too

Hence I felt fresh and happy here:)

.

After an afternoon well spent at the art gallery...

we three, sat on the table to eat

But he kept staring the dusky sky,

I did ignor him but then I enquired

He pointed up

Showed - the sun and the moon sharing the same sky.

I have seen such a sky before

Ofcourse I know the science behind

Yet........

this person I just met....

Seems to be different

He admired things,

the everyday stuff !

Which I once did too. 

I had always been an optimist....

I cherished music all around...

But I was indifferent now

I was overworked, avoided friends,

I kept low and had set boundaries too.

..

Here....

I got stuck in this dusky moment I felt...

Because

for the very first time....

I was all ears to someone NEW!

I wished to hear....to listen more.....

..

To justify my present nature 

I satisfied my taste buds

stuffed my mouth

headed back to my rented place

#1 How we met

I remember what I wore that day

black top,
A long skirt
mobile pouch hung around my neck
Red drop earrings...
....and my everyday black sandals.
That was not even close to beautiful!
I dressed so casual
while loose hair befriended the wind....
I wonder what caught his eyes....
Or what made him think....I was the one!
...
He says it was love at first sight
You think I should buy that?
Today after a decade, he says the same:)
I guess, he didn't really lie....

....

Flashback

I have turned so many pages....
Yet I am on the same ....for you...
I wish this was not so difficult...
Because I close my eyes to see you

Memories have survived the test of time...
And travelled with me to places...
A part of me I still miss...
That I had....shared with you:)

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Often remembering past events
Bring clarity to our present self!
**
Memories can fill us with joy
& bring peace to our troubled minds..

What is meant to be

 A new version of me is yet to be.

I tried to resist

I tried to hide

But love found me 

And made me smile :)

I made mistakes...

Which changed my way

Yet peace came to me

As I forgive myself :)

I like this change

Take steps to be better

Charge myself each day

To not regreat anything later.

I am AS I was

 Remember me?

Yes remember you!

***

Travelled so far

With memories of you..

You will feel a new me...

But with memories of you!

....

I cherish the younger self,

Love that carefree girl I once was...

Seems part of her still lives in me...

Looks like I have watered that seed Everyday!

...

I ain't different 

I ain't new.....

You bloom....they said...

So ......I simply grew......!

****

Neev

Jab chhote the to,

Bade bade sapne dekha karte the....

Aaj bade hue to chote chote 

Pal jeete hai :)

Papa ko dekhke lagta tha.....why does he live so simple!

But ab jaise I have understood my basics too....

Finally I work on beautifying my journey....

Not my body......or clothes......or my home

I have had friends telling me things

Colleagues commenting

Or even people who don't matter ....passing remarks....

But today it's just ME

And

I am sure my papa is very proud of me :) for who I have become......and will ever be!

Now I saw

 Everyday there's something new.....in you!

You have such a beautiful way of seeing situations....why don't you step out of your shoes for once

You have a very unique way of giving.......that none can match....but you surprise me when you treat strangers as strange!

You care unconditionally......but why just for me....!

****

I saw you 

From my eyes.....you see

So I never saw......what you had always been!

****

I see you now....As someone I always will wish you to be!

We are here to learn

 Trying hard....

Trying everyday

Yet I am still the same

And so are my days......

I wish I could learn to learn the ways

That don't bother me anymore

And forget what this life brings 

Yet I stay in this role

And forget the purpose of my soul!

I want to overcome the ME

To give up the feeling of belongingness

To not bother....rejections or acceptance

To live with my heart and mind full of 

PEACE.

I wish to live it all today

May there be no tomorrow 

Because that makes me plan and dream

And I feel the shoes I am in

I start to bother....

I put efforts....

To make things right and pleasing

Knowing it is not meant to stay after this life.

My day

Not  Today

Nor  Tomorrow 

But some day later

There will be a day

When I'll be a narrator

And tell my fairy tale :)

~~

Raaste Alag hai

Manzilen bhi.

duniya chhoti hai,

Humari doori nahi!

I look for you

There you are

Still in my thoughts

Awake in my eyes.....

Silent in my words....

I wish you were here in person too

Just here....with me today!